Not sure why I haven’t told you before now but I believe I was afraid of being judged. Do you ever feel that way – scared to share because someone may not like you or judge you for your decision?
Well I wasn’t sure how you would react when you knew that I got a tattoo.
Are you freaked out?
Are you thinking, “I would have never thought she would do that?”
Believe it or not, I wasn’t thinking about what you would think when I had it done on October 2, 2014. What I was thinking about was my relationship with God and about the message He gave me back in 2009 when I began training for my first half marathon.
As you see above, the writing within the butterfly wings says “My Life Is Not My Own!” If you are an avid reader of IWokeUpYesterday.com, a blog I been writing at for over three years, you are well aware of this message and how God has used this message in my life to remind me to live as a servant of Jesus Christ rather than living from my own agenda.
My agenda looks manipulated, I got it all together, look at me and please don’t hate me.
But God’s agenda looks like the abundant life of service, others before you, my path not yours, uncomfortable and risky.
I lived in my agenda for many years and it likes to sneak up on me from time to time.
Today I consciously choose God’s agenda that “my life is not my own” because it brings me to a place of clarity, confidence and contentment that nothing else can offer.
Ever since my transformational full marathon experience on New Year’s Day in 2011, I wanted this tattoo. By the way, it is located on my right leg calf because I was running when God spoke those words in my heart.
Up to this point of my life, I had never had a tattoo before and never really thought about it but this message – this transformation that God did in my life was something I wanted to remember and apply daily.
What finally made my decision to take the plunge was a devastating event – a dear friend, client and sister in Christ took her life.
You might be thinking why would you want to remember such a thing? Well, this beautiful women most people didn’t see. She was one of my biggest cheerleaders. She wasn’t flashy. She didn’t like attention. She was sometimes withdrawn but loved children.
This message of “my life is not my own” became so loud that day. It was like God saying to me, “I want you to see others through My eyes and build them up with My word.”
To me this tattoo is a daily reminder to…
Live daily God’s calling and message in my life!
Love those that want to hide out and not be seen!
Lift or build others up to believe in God and their purpose!
So does that make sense? Are we still friends? Hope so! 🙂