Why I’m Not Running Anymore

If you have followed my blog or writing for the last five years, you are aware that I’ve spent much time on a healing journey with God coupled by training and participating in races (5ks, halfs, and full marathons). God had a purpose and reason for this season of my life which was to grow in obedience, confidence and consistency in my walk with Him.

Well, I have grown and taken some women along with me. I stand here today completely honored and humbled how God used me amongst my brokeness to help other women heal from their past hurts and rise up to a life of confidence and purpose. #WOW

To be honest, last year (2015) was a year of striving for me that felt more like “my path” rather than “God’s path.” I desired a larger audience – a larger impact and some came but at an expense that wasn’t honoring to God or my family. By the mid-year, I felt the conviction in my heart as I ventured through Celebrate Recovery study.

The step study was hard yet perfect timing for opening the eyes of my heart to my character defects desiring to take me down a road that was all to familiar from my past.

Therefore at the beginning of this year, God revealed to me two words of intention for 2016 – connect and content. He was asking me again go deeper in my healing and recovery but this time it would look different from running. This time it looked like sitting, reflecting, breathing and resting in his presence.

Due to pain in my hip and lower back, running was no longer an option. Walking was ok but still sometimes painful.

This past April as I was praying and beginning to plan for another Weekend of Wins retreat, God stopped me in my tracks and began to shift my mindset about the weekend.

The event weekend is such a powerful experience but having it only once every two years isn’t allowing me to fully live out my spiritual gifts and purpose to empower women to rise up and build a life of confidence and purpose in Jesus Christ.

Yes I can do this online and daily with those around me but to authentically go deeper it needs to occur more often and preferably face to face.

Well let me say God is good all the time because as I ended my Celebrate Recovery Step Study completely resting in contentment and connection with God, he revealed to me a mechanism to fully live out my calling.

I am thrilled to share with you that at the beginning of 2017 I will be certified as a Holy Yoga instructor where I will facilitate the practice of yoga but more than that an experience and healing journey with God.

I’ve been in training since the beginning of May and it’s been wonderful. I did yoga back in 2010 when I was training for my full marathon and I was pain-free before, during and after that race.

Due to my hip and lower back pain, I’ve recently returned to yoga and have enjoyed every second especially centering it around experiencing God.

I haven’t been inspired to write since I started the instructor training but today during my yoga practice God spoke this into me to write today. It feels so wonderful and freeing.

The message I want to encourage you around today based on what I’ve learned so far this year is out of contentment flows more. When my heart isn’t content and resting in the Lord, it is striving out of need which returns emptiness. When I know God is my fill and completeness of every need I have, then God can bring more into my life.

True godliness with contentment is itself great wealth. After all, we brought nothing with us when we came into the world, and we can’t take anything with us when we leave it. So if we have enough food and clothing, let us be content. But people who long to be rich fall into temptation and are trapped by many foolish and harmful desires that plunge them into ruin and destruction. 10 For the love of money is the root of all kinds of evil. And some people, craving money, have wandered from the true faith and pierced themselves with many sorrows. 11 But you, Timothy, are a man of God; so run from all these evil things. Pursue righteousness and a godly life, along with faith, love, perseverance, and gentleness. 12 Fight the good fight for the true faith. Hold tightly to the eternal life to which God has called you, which you have declared so well before many witnesses.  1 Timothy 6:6-12

I appreciate your continued encouragement and support of this ministry. I ask for your prayers as God guides me on the timing and locations for next year’s Holy Yoga classes here on the Treasure Coast of Florida.

In the meantime, I encourage you to learn more about Holy Yoga on their webpage and come follow my journey to instructor on Instagram @HolyYogaStuart.

By the way, this isn’t an end to Weekend of Wins or encouraging your healing journey through running a race. I will be offering a 2nd edition of It is Finished book and online course again this Fall. So look for details on that soon.

Lastly, I will be hosting an event similar to weekend of wins but without the running element right here in Stuart, Florida in January 2017 called Rise Up and Build. Stay tuned for details on this too.

Many blessings,

Michelle D. Howe

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